|Me and My Mama|
|My sister and my beautiful Niece|
True loneliness wasn't an something I experienced until later in life. I think a lot of this just comes with being incredibly comfortable with your family. You don't have to put in the time to get to know each other, figure each other out and all that, you have always known these people. I think it's another reason I love going to visit my sister at her home so often. It is so nice to just sit back and be me without a thought as to how anyone else in the house might interpret me, my reactions, my preferences. They just, almost intuitively, get me and know that I have the best of intentions. I don't have anything to prove to them. I think I am and have always been concerned about offending my roommates by asking them things that they may feel isn't their responsibility, by getting in their way, by sometimes just wishing I were invisible so that I didn't bother them. I guess we would commonly refer to this as walking on eggshells. This isn't necessarily or in all cases their fault, but my own insecurity creeping in.
|2 of my favorite Roomies and our Janie|
I have had, lets see...12 roommates in the 10 years I have been out of high school. (Sometimes living in groups of 2 sometimes in groups of 3). I quickly learned in these situations that although most of my roommates have been wonderful, some are still my best friends to this day, it is rare to find someone to live with that you feel totally comfortable with. It's difficult to find friends that love you as your family does, with all your faults in place, unconditionally. I have been blessed to find those conditions a few times, but more often roommates never quite get there. Also, it's always a temporary living situation, in my case, as I don't plan on being unmarried without children forever, and no matter how much I love my roommate, I doubt she wants to move in with me and my new husband when we get our first place ;-) That is what I have found myself craving these past 4 years or so. A home created organically and buzzing with life and love.
|I lived with both these beauties!|
Maybe that's why I sometimes feel "homeless." My parents live over 6 hours away, my sister 3. I often wish I could just have my mom over to watch a movie and eat popcorn randomly on a Saturday night. I envy those that have this option.
|Me and my current roomie Katie G!|